Sorry Mr. Y

Do I have feeling to him?
When he tried to hold my hand just now.. I seem got some shocked feeling.. Just a few seconds, it has gone..
I asked him, don he think that we are too fast to fall in love?
He said, No! because got feeling..
For me, Yes! because I scare..
I scare to start a new love.. I scare it will end by a broken heart..
I dont have confident to handle a love very well..
I know, I never try.. I wont get any conclusion..
But.. I am lacking of a little courage.. a little impulse to start a new love..
Sigh~ what can I do?
Don force me to make a decision right now..
Still got many factors i need to consider or think well..
How?

Should I don't think too much and get together with him?
I know I already made him unhappy now.. cos he wanted my reply since jz nw..
but i really need to think for few more days..
So sorry to you.. I really dont hope to make u unhappy..
very sorry..
Plz forgive me... sigh~
I don want you to be sad..
Suddenly my heart feel pain when i saw ur personal msg..
why i feel pain?!
Do i have some feeling towards u? I care about you?
Mayb.. suddenly feel heart pain to ur msg..
Anyway.. give me some times.. i will reply you!!! k?

The Painful Breath

梁静茹-会呼吸的痛

在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛.....


>>> 为何这首歌能够唱出我当时的心情，当时的痛。。
为何你能够那么地神奇。。能够写出我当时的心痛。。
那是多么地贴切。。那么地真实！！
很久都没有见过他了。。只是他最近又找我加入他某个网站的朋友列表。。
我很久以前都已经删除他了。。为何他要找回我呢？
当我已下了决定的事情，是不会再回头了。。
对不起，只怪当初你伤害我太深了。。
不能怪我不和你做回朋友。。
而且现在已经没有这个必要了。。<<<<

A little trouble~

Why the Guys and Girls cannot be good friends?
Why the Guys and Girls have to step into another stage after a time?
Why they cant stay in the original position? in friend stages..
It's so hard to have a pure relationship between guys and girls.. Really!!!

Mayb I scare to accept a new love now.. I scare to get hurt once again..
Actually He is a good guy.. but i think it's too fast for me to start a new love with him..
I know he always give many hints to me..
But I pretend I donno everything.. I am escaping~
BUt it is really too fast.. I dont really so understand him.. I donno everything from him..
and actually I care his past..
He can so fast to change him aim..
He loved another girl before.. but the girl did not accept him.. and I know the girl also..
Perhaps this is the matter that I couldn't accept it..
because he can love a person so quickly and give up so fast after rejected by that girl..
Mayb I don't understand guy's thinking..
so i quite care of this small matter..
He let me feel that.. he is easy to fall in love..
but i am not the one can fall in love easily..
Sigh~.. anyway love is really trouble..
I have a nice chat with him always.. He is a good friend that can chat.. can get fun also..
But I don really hope to have a higher stage with him in this temprorary..
Be friend is the best choices for me currently..
I don't hope to destroy the good relationship with him now..
I enjoy to sms with him.. chat with him..
So i don't hope to have any changes in this time..

I really hope that.. he can give both of us a time..
to truly understand and realize each other well..
to see whether we are really suitable to be couple or friends....

Take A time~....

A little Sad at Tonight~

如果一个男生在你面前流泪？
你会有什么感觉？你会有什么反应？
其实他们流泪，并不代表什么。。
也许只是一种情绪上的发泄而已。。
当初我还不明白，以为他还爱着我。。
其实都不是。。
现在我已懂了。。。
我永远都不会忘记曾经的伤害和心痛。。
那种心痛真的是心如刀割。。如此的真实。。

Already past a few years.. I seldom rmb back this kind of sadness..
Just suddenly a friend mentioned to me.. Once again.. I dropped into the sadness...
A sad memory..
But it's ok..
The time to sad already gone.. No more sad now.. just a little feeling only..

Wanted!

I have a Long time didnt type something here..
Jz now went to sing k with friends..
Sing k = screaming loudly..
Dont know have anyone will agree with my silly thought..? I think there is nobody..
A happy singing jz now..
Although i do not have any singing techniques.. any sweet voice..
At least, I can release my feel.. my everything inside my heart..
The screaming is converted into words and melodies..... it's comfortable in my heart..

Sigh~ actually I'm losing my direction now.. I dont know where to go..
I don't know I have the courage to give myself a chance to have a new life..
New life.. I'm so wanted to have a new life long long time ago..
But i'm lacking of some courage.. a little courage to change myself..
so troublesome..
IF there are someone helps me to decide something.. Guide me to a right pathway..
I think It's really wonderful..
But.. Our fate is in our hands..
No one can really help us..

What should i do right now?
When should be the aimless life ended? -.-