Monday, August 31, 2009

Merdeka!!!

Happy Merdeka!!!
Such a quiet Merdeka day.. No big celebration for this year..
For many many reasonssss...
I You We They also know the reasonsss...

A public holiday..
But very boring...
No plc to go..
Just stay at home surfing watch tv.. etc... X.X
So pity...

Anyway.. Happy Independence Day to Malaysia!!!!! XD

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Complicated Feeling

刚才突然回想起很多事情的点点滴滴

也许傍晚的时候被一个不关我事的信息给影响到。
我真的很讨厌那个信息。。甚至我觉得很恶心。
我看了之后,我的心很不舒服,很悲哀。
其实这真的不关我的事了,为什么我还要去在意这么多?为什么!
我真的不明白我自己,也不懂得要如何处理我现在的思绪。。真的很乱。。也很烦。。
这该死的信息,为什么偏偏要给我看到,为什么偏偏要放在那里借此炫耀一番。。为什么?
真的很讨厌你!
也恨死你!(如果我可以做到这样绝,这样狠心的话。。。。)

我就是狠心不起来,我就是败在心软。
原以为可以彻彻底底地忘记你,干干净净的把你消除。。
可是我还是做不到。
别人对我残忍,我就是不能对别人狠心。就是因为心软。。。。。
恨自己偏偏不能对你狠心
恨自己为什么就是要那么在意你
恨自己为什么还要想念你
恨自己。。

别人也许正在开始遗忘你
把属于你的影子和一切都开始慢慢忘记
我不知道别人在想什么
因为我根本不知道他在想什么

可是我偏偏却不要把你忘记
很害怕有一天你会在我的脑海里消失
很害怕有一天你的模样开始在我心里模糊
使到自己反而要牢牢的把你记在心里。
真的不想把你忘记。

自己真的很没有用
虽然知道很多事情是不能勉强的。
可是这种事情不是说放下就可以放下。
我知道别人可以很快放得下
因为在别人的心里,爱情对他来说有没有都无所谓。
爱情在他心中已经不再重要。
也许在他心中的角落睡着了。
对他来说,现在不是爱情种子发芽的时候。
就算发了芽,长大成一棵大树,他也是得要狠心的把爱之树拦腰斩断,斩草除根。
我们的爱情就这样没有了。
到底是暂时的消失?还是永久的消失了呢?
我不知道。别人也给不到自己答案。

自己真的很失败。
是时候不要再去想了。。。。。。。。。。不值得。。

My head is super heavy... So tired... XC
Gonna sleep soon..
Don sad again Wei Xin...

Thursday, August 27, 2009

X.X Bad

Today I saw a person unconsciously..
If I Didnt look at the side.. Maybe I won't meet this person..
I hope that person didn't noticed me..

Why I dislike to meet this person..?
Because I really so so so hate him... Before..
Since past few years already.. That kinda hate has already diluted by time..
Seem no more feeling to hate that person already.. It's unworthy~
Although Lose that kind of HATE..
But it doesn't mean that I start to have favor towards that kind of person..
Definitely WOn't...
Maybe I heard too many hearsay about him..
So this is one of the reason caused me don't have any interests to him anymore..

It's good!!!


Actually I also dono what am i talking about now..
Blur blur....
Nothing to say....
Blur..

Monday, August 24, 2009

8月24日

今天的天好灰哦。。

今天是几号了?
8月24日 星期一

去年的8月24日
是 星期日

这么快又过一年了
去年的今天
我带着满满的快乐和期待飞去另外一个国度去追寻我的梦想,我想要的一切。。
可是一年后的我,却打回原型了。
什么都没有了。
情也逝去,梦也消失。

现在的我,到底要该往哪个方向才好呢?
现在应该是假期了。
可是我就要每天都在挨

我真的不懂要如何形容现在的我
得过且过
潦潦草草的过每一天
难道这真的是我想要的吗?
每天都要面对着我很讨厌的人
每天都要再说善意的谎言吗?
很讨厌这样的自己了。
超讨厌。。。

很想一个人独自去流浪
到外地去生活,体验一下当地的风土人情。
也许这样子,自己会变得更独立更坚强更开通。。
可是流浪是需要金钱的。
没有钱,别想可以到处去流浪。。
唉~
希望明天会更好。
不要再唉声叹气了。
努力努力!
失去了也不会再回头了
向前向前!
加油加油!
要活的比别人更好。。。。

Sunday, August 23, 2009

善意的谎言

什么是善意的谎言?
如何定论善意的谎言呢?
人总是那么的矛盾
想不要说谎,可是还是为了面子,谎言就从口直出。
到底为了什么呢?
面子难道就真的那么重要?
还是为了逃避一些事情?
没有人可以百分百给予答案。。
只有看自己怎样去想而已。。。。。=.="

Thursday, August 20, 2009

What a BAD DAY!!!!!

Damn Bad day today!!!
Never meet this kinda prob before...

I was getting crazy today!!!
Why everyone have to oppose with me???
Especially that Sxxx Fxxx Tauke...
Bastxxx...
I was so angry this evening....
What a stingy.. stingy.. bad bad bad.. person.. no.. is both of you.. Spouse..!!!!
I tell you now.. I wont scare you..
If you dare to say anything to me again...
I can very persist to tell u now...
I won't let u bully me anymore....
Plz don't think that I keep silent always then assume that I am a person that can be bullied by both of you EASILY...
Sorry!!!! No...
I won't respect you both anymore..
I also have my own dignity... You!!! Plz.. Shut up ur MOUTH!!!
我不吃你那套!!!!


Anyways, today really an unlucky day and night!!
Suppose to go to sleep now bcos I have to wake up at 7am tml ..
To continue my own stuff...
But I can't fall asleep now...
Fxxxx!!!!!

再一次 - 曹格

这一刻我停止了呼吸

是不是剩我有回忆
相信 也不会冷的不露痕迹
而这代价竟不能把我打醒

这一秒我听不到空气

会不会唤醒逃避
就算老天要这样对我不公平
It's all right
我还有这勇气

再一次等待你爱的是我
经不起一错再错
掩饰寂寞却无处可躲

再一次等待你爱的是我
沉默也是一种解脱
也看不见这伤口



I like this lyric.. Especially the part I highlight..
Yea.. Mayb Dumbness is also a kind of disentangle..
Mayb You choose to keep silent.. Everything will be gone like that..
Time will dilute any sadness.. anger.. and memory...
and your "wound" will recover one day .... ....
I believe~

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

答案

在笔记本荧幕上看见自己的倒影
想起刚才我终于踏出第一步来面对自己。
虽然只是一件小事
可是对我来说,已经是勇气可嘉了。
面对真实的自己,需要很大的勇气。
我终于做到了。
不再逃避。
虽然说,还是没有结果。
我想,始终这件事情还是要解决的。
终有一天,一定会有结果的。

对一个人坦白,真的很难。
当初说好要对彼此坦白,现在做的话,挺难咯。
坦白,就是让彼此看见对方,听见对方心里的一切想法。
可是,你真的做到对他坦白吗?
我不知道。
也不想去管了。
需要时间再调适好自己。
希望能找到答案。
找到你想要的答案。

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

At outside

Online-ing at outside now..
But the line damn bad.. cant even login a website..
Finally the line returns back to Ok only..
So I can open my blog and FB as well.. Hehe

A free night..
Feel that boring so out with a fren..
But here so noisy..
Those Juice and coffee blenders are so noisy..
Cant even listen what each other talk.. =P

Actually I am moody today..
Just same as the weather here..
Not too hot and not so gloomy here..
I like the weather here..
If can raining at night during the time I sleep..
I think is GREAT!!
Can fall asleep very easily.. =)

Hope that I can enjoy the night ..
Blessed night~

Monday, August 17, 2009

晚安

与你的距离似远似近
虽然是隔着一个网络
可是我还是感觉不到你的存在
是我不敢开口还是你已经不想再知道了
我们这样的关系该如何形容?
很想开口可是就是开不了口
就是缺乏了一种叫作勇气的勇气

让我再想清楚吧。。

晚安!

Hmmmm......

Actually I am tired now..
But I still stick on the chair and surfing..
The eyes just look at the laptop screen only.. without looking other places..
The night is so silent..
Actually I just reached home one hour ago..
Doing my stuff but luckily it has done..
But got arguement with someone just now..
Sigh~ why always can't escape from this kinda small matter???
I also donno why..
Mayb I cant control myself to not to argue with someone anymore...
Actually it's hard to inhibit ur anger..
It was burned~

Before I done my stuff..
This morning.. I went out with my "lou sei"..
Really long time no c her..
So today consider as helped her to celebrate her past birthday..
We went hair cut..
We went to eat Sushi.. (Not really nice taste actually.. :X)
We went to yam cha and hang gai..
At last I choosed a gift to her.. Sorry for no giving u a surprise but bringing u along to choose gift.. cos I really hv to time no choose a gift.. hope u like the "Pork" gong zai.. hehe...
What a wonderful day!!!
But I saw a person that I not really wanna see..
Luckily He didnt see me bcos I hide myself beside my friend.. hehe..

It's 2am lo.. hv to go to bed to Oi Oi..
Tml need to wake up early too.. T.T
Not enuf to zzzz...

Good night!!! ZZZZzzzzzzz....

Thursday, August 13, 2009

T.T

难道日子就要这样的过?

难道我真的想要这样?

我很努力地去寻找我想要做的事情

可是我一点头绪也没有

面对这样广阔的网络

我竟然连一个相关的字想打进去搜索都没有

真的很失败。。。。。

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

开不了口

就是开不了口

我还在构思着要如何解决这一切

已经想了好多天

原以为自己会放弃这一些

可是我还是做不到

也开不了口

原来心还是有所牵挂

即使 人,不会再为我牵挂

我知道我自己也有问题

我想通了很多事情

觉得不要再一直错怪为什么别人一直对我怎样怎样

终于发现本身问题所在

一直不能够和别人妥协

我知道我有错!

答应的事情总是做不到!

我知道这一切是我本身的问题

可是算了吧

我也不懂我要该如何说了!

我会好好再想想我的问题了

希望想好之后,不要再开不了口了................

=(

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Today

Today, I have think many about myself..
I was thinking the current of me..
Did I feel satisfied to the current of me?
I was asking myself in my heart!!!!

Say truly, I did not!!!!
The current of me actually is very failed and lousy person.. For myself!!!!
I never think that I will become like that at all..
Never.. I thought It should be a Happy....... ..... ..... . .. . .. . . .. . ..... . .. ..
But this is the pathway I had been chosen.. without thinking wisely and clearly..
So no regrets appear in my heart anymore...
have to inhibit this kinda feelings come out again...

Since ppl also hv their own career and money to be aimed..
why did I still step on the same ground?
Am I "siau"? Still waiting what for there...
Ppl won't pay attention to you if you are weak and lousy..
The one who are strong and got power and strength holding in their hand..
This kinda ppl will be given respect and attention by others ppl...
The world is very cruel and realistic..
V hv to accept the fact for this cruel + realistic world..
If you have money, You can do many things easily.. You can do whatever You wanted and desired for so long... This doesn't a dream if You are a billionaire or millionaire.. Haha!!!

So I have to do the best in everything!!!
Pay attention and put the sincere heart in doing everything!!!
I wish the dreams can come true in ONE day!!!!
Work harder can bring lotssss of thingss...
Cheerss Up!!!!!

Monday, August 10, 2009

改变自己

突然觉得这里很安静也很忧郁

不懂为什么

是我想太多了还是忽然感觉到这种感觉而已?

不想去知道了!想太多未必是件好事。

我只是知道,现在是时候改变自己了。

“我可以改变世界
改变自己
改变龟毛
改变小气
要一直努力 努力
永不放弃
才可以改变世界
come on 改变自己”


要改变自己了
世界都一直在改变
自己,终不能原地踏步,不改变自己
人人都在改变
时代也越来越进步
自己也要改变自己,要让自己进步!不要再落伍了!
要改变自己!!!!!

Saturday, August 08, 2009

一个不像笑话的笑话 :S

恋爱像轻音乐,热恋像摇滚乐,
结婚像流行乐,和谐的关系才能让爱情乐章不停地演奏下去。

这是我从最近我读的某本书引用在这里。
这本书的作者说以上的句子是他从网络上看到的,他说这是一个笑话。
是吗?我倒不认为这是一个笑话啦。
很不错的句子。
很“ 吊”的比喻。哈哈!
其实我也不太想说太多关于爱情的东西。
只是觉得很有意义。
所以就把它引用在这啦。

Wishes~

Today is my best friend " Prk" 's birthday!
Wish her happy birthday here..
Actually I know that she is not really happy today!
Mayb someone didnt be with her.. or even call also less.. I think~
Anyway I understand the feelings.. It's damn bad and sad...
So wish u all the best la!!!! =)

Friday, August 07, 2009

不是不想睡

其实现在是我应该睡觉的时候。
生病了还不去睡。
不是不想睡。而是睡不着。
吃了药,可是一点睡意都没有。惨!
也许是我心事一箩箩吧!
不想说了,只得勉强自己去上床睡觉。
今天好像写了很多篇部落格。
晚安!

Get Cold~

Get Cold today.. Haiz..
I also dono why will get cold.. =(

Alone at home..
Feel very lazy now..
I wish to hide in my room now.. and don wanna go out..
I am tired to smile with every1..
I am tired to hide myself..
I am tired to inhibit myself..
Tired in everything...
Just hope to hv a rest..
Have a rest to somewhere to relax myself..
Just hope..
Just wish..
But I know it is impossible..
Dare to think.. But don't dare to carry out..
bcos of many factors and reasonssss....

The house is so silent now..
My heart is more silent...

于心有愧 - 陈奕迅

如果我听歌可眼红
何以待你好偏不懂自细做过多少美梦
慈悲的伟论
连乞丐喊穷心也痛
竟怕放怀拥抱你 让你露欢容
追悔无用 转眼发现 你失踪

曾听说过 你某夜结婚 未曾露笑容
实在不敢知道我是元凶
大概当初我未懂得顾忌
年少率性害惨你
令人受伤滋味 难保更可悲
这心地 再善良终生怎去 向你说对不起

良心有愧 原来随便错手 可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为
便伟大到像多麽有为
这种剌蝟 连谁曾待我好 都可带来伤势
被我害过来接受我跪
是我在制造眼泪居然想救世

就算积储献尽饥荒赤地
而太多债没处理
累人累己滋味 余生也记起
数一数 我实情不只得你要说句对不起

良心有愧 原来随便错手 可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为
便伟大到像多麽有为
这种剌蝟 连谁曾待我好 都可带来伤势
被我害过来接受我跪
是我在制造眼泪居然想救世

于心有愧 原来随便错手 可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为
便伟大到像多麽有为
这种剌蝟 连谁曾待我好 都可带来伤势
内疚内疚内疚没作为
直到某年某日我能安息於葬礼

仍想你一家可到齐



**这首歌真的很好听。之前已经听过可是不懂歌名,之后无意中在某个歌唱比赛发现这首歌曲。所以就开始去搜索这首歌!这首歌真的很棒!虽然它的歌词不是关于爱情,可是还是很感人。Eason 的这张专辑其实发行了差不多半年。可是我还是没有正正式式去听这张专辑。只是听过一首“今天只做一件事”。 这首歌也很好听!也是不是关于爱情。
这张广东专辑真的很棒!值得推荐! 虽然是迟了一些。^_^
“沙龙”,“还有什么可以送给你”。。这些也不错。值得听一听。****

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Raining

It was raining outside just now..
Finally it rains because of haze problem, the weather at here is really suck..
It is damn hot!! Super duper hot!!
At last, the rain was landing to this earth. Moisten the rimous ground.
and also moisten my heart.. because my heart was in a dry and blasted status b4.
because of some problem...

Everything can happen just in a blink.
But if u are ready to face the problem. I think that is not a big deal.
So Do be the strong and brave in any moment.
Do not be timid and weak in any status.
You can overcome everything if u are strong and brave enough.
Just be the best in every moment and the rest of your life.
Do the best..
Do not look down on by other.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

不懂在说什么!

在挣扎着是否要试一试
不然心就会一直在想着
可是当试了以后
得到的却是一场空
换来冷漠的回应
以及迫不及待要逃掉的感觉

以为没有消息的日子里
会有所决定
原来我已经习惯了
把心上锁
不知道是时间的转变
还是自己已经在改变
我已经迷失了方向
不知现在是白昼或黑夜

时间可以改变一个人
一个人也可以把事情改变
只看在你愿不愿意
不想想了
不想逃了
终究还是要去寻找一个答案
希望答案在我眼前

Sweet love by friend

Viewed a fren's profile and photos just now..
They are so sweet.. a sweet couple..
They are so enjoy in their love..
Every pic is smiling.. very sweet..
Both of them are my ex classmates..
We witness their love since they started pak toh.. till now.. haha..
Sure we will wish them can "bai tou xie lao".. hahaha..

Their love makes ppl feel envy~ =)