Thursday, December 31, 2009

2009年

今天终于来到2009年的最后一天了
2009年对于我来说,Really The Unluckiest Year!!!
在今年真的发生太多事情了~
痛苦的感觉仍然历历在目....


我失去的东西比得到的东西还要“多”!
我真的失去太多东西了
我也很后悔当初的决定~
这个决定让我的人生彻底改变.....
真的是彻彻底底、完完全全地改变了.....
我失去的
用金钱也买不回来
时间也换不回来我失去的一切.....
怪谁?我可以怪谁?....
怪谁都没有用~
已经弥补不回来了....
我只能够选择忘记
忘记曾经伤害过我的人
忘记这种难堪的回忆
忘记痛苦和悔恨的一切....
不想再去记得了....
因为这一切已经没有什么地方可以值得我去回忆.....
如果可以,我要把这一切污点都给删除掉
永远不要留在我的脑海里....
我不希望它占有我的记忆体....
我的记忆体是用来储存快乐的回忆
而不是储存那些痛苦的回忆...


所以,我决定了!
从此以后要把你统统删除掉!
我要重新做回我自己!
不会再由任何人来摆布我了!
加油!


虽然今天又是单身的人最害怕度过的日子
可是能够看见别人成群三五的狂欢
也是一种快乐~




HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!!!! HUHU.....
IT WILL BE THE BLESSED YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!
HAPPY 2010~
大家一起来狂欢吧!!!!
让2009年画上完美的句号~ ^^ ~

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

该恨谁?

刚才的我,真的超级沮丧,超级恨自己的无能
可是一切只是无奈~
只能够以无奈的感觉来形容现在的我....
被别人狠狠地泼冷水
这种感觉有谁能了解?
不止一次的泼冷水,而是无数次的情形依然在发生...
我好恨!
我真的好恨!
我到底恨的是那个泼我冷水的人
还是我正在恨我自己?
我不懂!
真的不懂!
为什么这样的情形一直发生在我身上...
为什么我的日子就是不能过得顺心一点....
我也不懂!
真的不想去懂~


我的心,又再次受伤~
泪,只能在眼眶里打转
不允许自己再流任何一滴泪了
厌倦了这种情绪~
原来情绪也可以被厌倦~
真的不想拥有这种伤心欲绝的感觉了
好恨!非常讨厌!极度讨厌和厌倦!
真的..........


I just wanna be Happy!!
I just hope to be Happy!!
Can I ???


Monday, December 28, 2009

失落。感伤

突然间很讨厌现在的生活
因为我的生活真的很枯燥乏味,什么值得回忆都没有~
总而言之,就是很厌恶现在的自己~
也许我要的并不是这一些
我想,肯定的是,我要的并不是这一些~
可是,我真的没有的选择了....
我真的很羡慕别人有的生活
那些,才是我想要的生活、我想要过的日子~
可是这一切已经不再可能了
一切都已经被摧毁了。
看着别人的精彩的照片
突然悲哀起自己并没有什么照片可以值得留念
没有照片可以回忆
是因为我的生活并不精彩
没有什么可以拍下来让它变成回忆...




失落的感觉又出现了
寂寞的感觉又出现了
讨厌的感觉又再次浮现.....
我要如何阻止这种感觉又再次侵袭我呢??
我的心,真的很低落
这世界好像一瞬间掉入了低潮
看不到天明
心,也跟着起了变化~
这种变化可以有终点吗?
不想再有这种难受的感觉了~
告诉自己,一定要习惯这一切................
任何事情..... 都一定要学会去习惯.........
不然,心,会显得更落寞~~




Sunday, December 27, 2009

Broken!!!
















I had broken my lovely cup this afternoon by accidentally... Sigh~ Very sad~
I like the pattern of this cup.. "Cheers!"
It's so unique..
It's also accompany me for few years..
However, I had broken it!!!
-Sobbing-

But I think it still can be used again.. Just don't use the part which is broken while drinking water.. Sigh..
Sad about it... T_T

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Forward Email (Meaningful)

This is really sweet.........

When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering
how long you will be around.


When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.

When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.

When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a Girl wants to see you everyday.... she wants to be pampered.

When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.

When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.


Life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person....

Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who ...  kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.


Who turns to his friends and says,  'That's her!! '



 

Friday, December 25, 2009

Eason Chan - 圣诞结


我住的城市从不下雪
记忆却堆满冷的感觉
思念到忘记霓虹扫过喧哗的街
把快乐赶得好远
落单的恋人最怕过节
只能独自庆祝尽量喝醉
我爱过的人没有一个留在身边
寂寞他陪我过夜
Merry Merry Christmas,
Lonely Lonely Christmas
想祝福不知该给谁
爱被我们打了死结
Lonely Lonely Christmas
Merry Merry christmas
写了卡片能寄给谁
心碎的象街上的纸屑

落单的恋人最怕过节
只能独自庆祝尽量喝醉
我爱过的人没有一个留在身边
寂寞他陪我过夜
Merry Merry Christmas
Lonely Lonely Christmas
想祝福不知该给谁
爱被我们打了死结
Lonely Lonely Christmas
Merry Merry christmas
写了卡片能寄给谁
心碎的象街上的纸屑
电话不接不要被人发现我整夜都关在房间
缓缓的响声听来象哀悼的音乐
眼眶的泪 温热冻结
望着电视里的无聊节目
躺在沙发上变成没知觉的植物
Merry Merry Christmas
Lonely Lonely Christmas
想祝福不知该给谁
爱被我们打了死结
Lonely Lonely Christmas
Merry Merry christmas
写了卡片能寄给谁
心碎的象街上的纸屑
Merry Merry Christmas
Lonely Lonely Christmas
想祝福不知该给谁
爱被我们打了死结
Lonely Lonely Christmas
Merry Merry christmas
写了卡片能寄给谁
心碎的象街上的纸屑
谁来陪我过这圣诞节

Christmas 2009

Today is Christmas Eve already..
Time flies quickly.. 2009 already came to the end of the year..
Then We will welcome the approach of 2010...
2009.. An Unlucky and Not smooth Year..
2010.. A Mystery Year..
Hope that everything will be ok in next year..
X'mas day of this year..
Different as past year..
Because I am totally alone in this Christmas Eve and Day...
In the Past, I still have friends can be together to celebrate..
But this year, It's different...
Some of them are not around here...
and some of them have their own lover can dine in together...
Just left me... I have nothing... I have nobody...

Absolutely a Lonely Christmas..
Totally a Silent X'mas Eve..
Hmm... Actually I'm a bit down.. But still persuading myself not to too care about it..
It's nothing.. Just a festival only... etc...
So I'm ok de..
No ppl pui won't die one la..
Just a sudden feeling only.. >.<
Hehe...
Btw, Merry X'mas to everyone... :)
Have a blessed X'mas Eve and Day....



Monday, December 21, 2009

用心

今晚的我,想几点睡就几点睡
不用再被时间约束了~
我是自由的!
不用再被讨人厌的工作给束缚着~
也不用再受气~
也不用再被眼中钉利用~
我终于逃离魔掌了~~~~~~~~

我是生活中的主宰者
我不是别人的傀儡~
我不是别人的扯线娃娃~
我终于可以做回我自己~
忠于自己的想法
忠于自己的一切......

虽然以后的日子,我会一个人孤军作战
可是我相信自己是可以办得到
最重要是用心去办好每一件事情
那么一切都会对得起自己的良心
用心付出
相信一切都能搞得好.....
希望如此~













用心去完成每一件事情
相信一定可以实现自己的理想~ ~ ~

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

I am coming... Freedom

5 more days to go...
I will be released from the annoying and hateful job~
I will get my freedom....
I don't need to do any stupid n none of my business things again...
So hate n annoyed~
Mayb I look like very easy bully...
Mayb I don't know how to say "NO"!!
So I just can be a "puppet" to let others to "manipulate" me...
No chance to say NO..
No chance to reject..
Just can say "YES" and "OK OK"...
That's not me!!!
I hate the current of myself...
I hate myself!!
I just can tell the querimony to my dearest..
I just can lost my temper behind...
Hate!!!
I just only can tell myself...
BE PATIENT!!!
YOU WILL GET FREEDOM after few dayssss....
要忍耐!:(

Monday, December 14, 2009

Where is my Smile?

为什么就是不快乐?
为什么就是不能开心一点?
为什么就是要那么的低落?
难道我就是不能真正的快乐?
偶尔快乐,偶尔悲伤
难道这就是人生每天都要经历过的循环?
我失去属于我的笑容
我失去属于我的快乐
我失去属于我的所有....


纵然知道这一切一切都需要靠自己去找回
不是等天掉下来,就会必然的送到你面前
很多东西就是要靠自己的努力~ 才能够拥有~
幸福不是必然的
快乐也不是必然的
这一切就得要要自己去寻找.........



















Where is my smile??
I NEED YOU SO MUCH~
PLEASE MAKE ME SMILE~
I Love You ~ Smile ~

Friday, December 11, 2009

不好的感觉

突然觉得自己好傻~
去在乎一个根本不值得自己去在意的人
过去的伤痛,历历在目,不可能忘记
只是为什么自己还是控制不了自己的情绪和思想呢?
过去了就是过去了
过去了就变成回忆了
是时候停止这种不可思议的感觉
现在轮不到自己去在意或在乎了
一定要停止这种荒谬的感觉
一定要!不能让自己沦陷了~

原本已经开始要逐渐忘记
可是最近又情不自禁地想起来
不应该这样子~ Cannot!!!!!!
已经决定放弃就要狠心的让自己忘记~
不要再嫉妒事不关己的事情了~

希望时间会冲淡一切 ~

Thursday, December 10, 2009

ANNOYING

Today my mood had been spoilt by someone that very childish thinking one...
I dono tat person consider as childish or too care of some unreality "world"..
Just for fun only.. doesn't it...?
Blame me for what??!!! It's just for fun only!!!
The rules has set.. If you feel annoying.. please go to scold that creator who create this...
Please dont come and blame me!!!
I didn't did wrong anything...
Did u ever think others people's feeling?
Suddenly send a msg and blame and it's just because of some small matter...
It's very very funny!!!! and CHILDISH!!!
It's so so so ANNOYING!!!!
Never meet this kind of person..
Still thought that you are quite nice one...
Now.. You are NOT!!!

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Nonsense-ing

If tomorrow is Sunday.. It's perfect!!!!
I so hate to wake up early everyday~
and wake up early is not a problem..
The problem is I hate to go there!!!
Basically I am an impatient person..
Waiting ppl coming in 10-15 minutes I also feel very impatient..
But now I have be the earliest one and the latest to leave..
I really feel HATE!!!
I am unhappy!!
But I have to wear a smiling face to face those kind of ppl..
Everything say ok ok!! No problem!! (With a unnatural smile)
I so hate!!
But what to do!!
This is so called " Life "!!!
Not everything is going smoothly in our life...
I just have to be patient until this middle of month then I will get my freedom!!!
I hope the days come earlier but I don't hope that December will end quickly in a blink of eye...
Why I have so many problems to face...
Feeling that I am alone...
I am unhappy actually..
I hope to cry but there is no tears fall down from my eyes..
Maybe I am used to lock myself in a corner of dark place...
Already feel numb in everything...
This few weeks just only know busy busy in my mind.. no others... 
Is this me???
Donno...

Thursday, December 03, 2009

转载文章

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手, 好让别人有机会爱她. 


如果你的人放弃了你,  
请放开自己, 好让自己有机会别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的
...  
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的...  
人生中有许多种 但别让自己成为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的
...  
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的...

一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的
. 
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.


如果真诚是一种伤害, 我选择谎言;  
如果谎言一种伤害, 我选择沉默; 
如果沉默是一种伤害, 我选择离开.

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

December

12月了~ 终于12月了~
天天都在忙,盲盲盲地在忙~
盲目地在忙,其实是蛮累的

12月,也是一年的最后一个月
也是充满佳节的气氛~
从以前到现在都很喜欢12月
因为12月算是“圣诞月”~
在任何的商场都可以听见悦耳的圣诞歌
琅琅上口的圣诞歌
再加上华丽的圣诞装饰
也逐渐地把圣诞气氛推到最高潮~

以前小的时候是很喜欢圣诞节
因为有礼物收~哈~
虽然知道是妈咪偷偷买的
可是都是很开心~
如果能回到孩童的纯真年代
那该多好~~~
好怀念~

踏入12月
不知道为什么我的心情总是很低落~
不懂为什么~
希望自己能够重见快乐~哈~