无言...

为什么就是矛盾？
为什么就是复杂？
有时候自己真的很不了解自己~
明明就很想去做
可是突然又会出现一种感觉
一种能够打击你士气的感觉~
就这样~明明很想做的~到最后就变得不了了之~
真的很失败....

要成功~

I wanna be a successful person!
我要成功！
我一定成功！
希望可以成功！
一定可以.....

脑海里就不停地盘旋这几句话~
今天突然间很想成功的做好每一件事情！
不想再面对失败了...
失败的感觉很不好受....
我好像并没有一次真正的感受到成功的快乐....
只有常常感受到失败的难堪滋味....

心里一直告诉自己
一定要成功...
不可以再做一个一无所有的人...

成功不容易
可是只要经历过失败
成功就在不远处...
一切都靠要自己努力地去抓紧所有的收获...

希望明天会更好！
希望成功的日子离我不远~

明白

今天，我终于明白....
明白每一件事情其实就是因为有“因”才会有“果”....
可能很多事情都是命中注定的...
可是本身后天的努力其实也很重要....
也许后天的努力和改变“也许”可以扭转命运....
可是这些东西很难说的来...
最重要的是
就要靠自己本身如何去解决每一件事情....
所以当你知道问题的根源时
你就得要设法的去想办法解决
而不是坐以待毙... 等天塌下来才如梦初醒....
这时候一切都已经太迟了...

所以你要加油！
你要相信自己！
你要相信自己可以改变原状...
你要相信自己的能力....
你一定会过得比明天更好.....
希望就在明天.....

23

就这样，又过了23岁生日。

23，23这个数字，是我今年的岁数。

我终于踏入23岁了。:(

23岁的女生，在这个时候，其实应该要拥有怎样的人生呢？

23岁的女生，她到底要如何度过她的人生呢？

我妈咪在23年前，就是她23岁的时候把我生下。

她23岁的时候，已经做了妈妈。

而我23岁呢，我什么都没有。

本来应该拥有的，都被我摧毁了，渣都没有。

23岁的我，应该要改变自己的一切，尤其是思想。

我不能够再如3岁小孩的思想一样，单纯又没有理想。

23岁的我，要努力去寻找自己的理想和目标，要努力地去看看这个世界，要努力地去开拓自己的人生，更要努力地把梦想实现。

希望自己不要再做一只井底蛙，永远只看到头顶上的天空而已。

一定要改变自己，让自己看得到改变。

希望踏入23岁的我，能够在未来看到全新的自己。

希望自己能够好好管理自己的情绪，不要动不动就感到悲伤忧郁。

虽然知道自己本身是个情绪化的人，可是还是要尽量控制自己。

希望我能够成为一个快乐的人，不再忧郁.......

虽然23岁没有庆祝生日，可是平淡就是一种幸福...

不会再像以前那样，渴望庆祝生日。

也许是环境造成的，所以今年就没有那么地渴望了...

因为我相信，生日不一定要庆祝，生日不一定要受到礼物... 平平淡淡的度过.. 未尝不是一件好事。^^

祝自己生日快乐... 梦想成真.... :)

所以...

23岁....

加油加油！

每天都过得健康快乐........

Gloomy on 38

Today... 38 day...
I was unhappy and feel so down...
because I was hurt by some words that spoken out by someone...
I am not "XX"...
Please don't always say me like that...
I'm not that person that you always scold out...
I am not... I'm absolutely not that kind of person..
I am not being that kind of person...
Please... Please...
I have my own self-esteem...
Please don't use that kind of words to insult me...
Although I didn't show any expression...
But... I am hurt... I am sad... You know?
But You won't know it...
Because you have used to scold ppl like this...
You won't be conscious of it...
Especially me ~
You only thought that I am weak and not independent...
I won't be tough and strong at all...
I also hope to be an "useful" and successful person...
But sometimes your words are driving me to crazy...
You always hit me by unconsciously...
I am hurt and sad always...
but nobody knows...
Nobody nobody nobody....

Perhaps of always hearing some hurt words...
I become more and more no confident...
I become more and more useless...
I don't dare to do my own decision even though I just wanna request for something...
But I am so scare to express out...
because I know that my thought will be rejected by someone always..
Seems that I do not have my own freedom to do whatever...
Actually not...
But just... I don't know how to express myself only..
I afraid to be hurt by those words once again...
I do not have confident...
I lost it... I am scare.....

Gloomy is my today's mood description.........

3 March

3 March
A brand new month after Chinese New Year..
Actually there is nothing to write about myself and my life...
Because my life is totally uninterested and colourless...
No doubt.. Absolutely It is..
And this is not the "thing" that I wanted and desired...
However I have no choice...
I have to face and admit that is my destiny... Admittedly....
Keep on blaming why that is not belongs to me.. Why Why Why...
It's totally Uselessssss....
Nobody will help you!!!
They just will keep on stepping on you without any sympathize....
Accept it ! because the world is cruel than which we can't imagine about it...
It's ruthless...

Anyways.. A brand New month...
Hope that it's another new journey for me....
Be smart and be Tough....
Do not kick down by enemies easily....
Gayao ~ Me...