5th months Anniversary =)

Hmm..
Today is 30 october 2008

Our 5th months anniversary! =)
We already come until 5 months...

You always laugh me childish because of always remembering the anniversary.. =)
haha... Not good meh if I remember it!! ?
This is girls' style! Can't change de..

Once again..
Thank you for caring me always..
Thank you for always satisfying what I wished and just talked simply to you..
Thanks for treating me good..
Thanks..

I love you!! =)
Forever..

A thought - temptations

Started my holidays already have a week.
These few days~ Lazy to update blog~
I just doing nothing everydays~ =(
Sien..

Today is Thursday~ 30 October 2008!
Hmm... have been stayed at KL already 2 months + ..
Too many TEMPTATION here~
It is Truth..
I have been tempted by many things..
Uncountable temptationS..
Like a "san ba po".. never come to big city.. haha!
Actually not la..
Just never try... So hope to try only.. =)
Hmm.. here actually is good.. but I do not like here so much..
May be it is quite dangerous here..
Maybe it is quite many BLACK ppl around my place.. flirting gals always.. Dislike them! =(
Some of the taxi drivers are very rude and "chuen" too..
And donno what to eat everyday.. trouble about it.. =(
Not enough money use la..
I miss my delicious food in Sandakan as well..
And one thing is.. The weather at here is really super duper hot!! Especially my room~ Can't get sunlight.. and can't get a little Winds as well.. =(
Raining heavily also can't feel any coldness or windy here..
Open windows also useless.. no Wind!!!! =(
Hate the designers who design the unit here..
Design a '' L '' shape.. sure the rooms inside the L shape can't get any winds or sunlight!!
Stupid baka designerSSss.. =(
These few days i just know hot hot hot sweaty sweaty sweaty in my mind..
and caused my body very very sticky because of those sweat..
No raining this week!! =(

Anyway, stay at KL also got it's advantages de..
and also got it's disadvantages..
Sigh~

一个疑问！

我是不是应该豁出去?
今晚的我真的很担忧~
也很害怕~

不是不信任的问题~
而是这是我本身的问题。。
我还没能豁出我自己~
我在害怕着。。。

我应该怎么办？
拿出来商量。。
却被当成是一种逃避~~
并没有了解我的内心是怎样想的。。


=（
我并没有在逃避。。
只是我不知道我自己想怎样！！！！！

UCSI = University Ucsi

Fireworks.. It is pretty!

But I can't capture a nice view of this pretty fireworks.. =(

No technique..

Why got fireworks ceremony leh?

Because..

UCSI finally become UNIVERSITY UCSI =)

They celebrate it..

But burning our money lo..

Beautiful fireworks .. but burning our money... =(

Hesitate-ing

The Sundae Cup which I taken jz now... =) Yummy..

Hesitate-ing
Hesitate-ing
Hesitate-ing


I am hesitate-ing.. after I came out from exam hall......
The day is DRIZZLE-ing.. Felt very down and blue~
because I think I might be failed in both of the subjects..
Sobbing~ =.=

Went alone to Mc Donald's to have a Sundae ''cup" and a drinks..
Yummy~ Sundae ice-cream..
Actually I wanna have a Sundae CONE but not Sundae CUP de..
But that new coming Indian girl key in a wrong order..
Sigh.. Nvm lo.. Still can eat!!
But I prefer Sundae Cone leh because the cone very crispy and delicious..
Haha!!!
No McDonald's in my hometown.. so everytime I went to KK sure I will go to MC donald to have a burger set and Sundae cone.. Hehe..
After coming to KL here..
I think I quite often to have Mc donald's burger set here..
already tempted by Mc donald's liao.. = )

Why am I hesitate-ing?
because I am thinking how is my future?
I dont want to do something that I dislike here.. =(
So still thinking..
Still hesitate-ing..

I am thinking and considering well well well NOW..
hope to get answers soon..


Tomorrow (Today, Friday)
will be a boring day..
after exam.. nothing can do..
hope to go outside..
But it is impossible lo..
someone unwilling to out.. and not free oso.. nvm lo..
i understand geh..
just myself too childish and ren xing... = (

Failed + Disappointed

My Bilingualism Final Exam.. TODAY!
It had been gone..
But It will be given me a surprise on end of this December.
Because I will be failed! No DOUBT..
No hesitate~
No suspicious~
This is a truth!!!!

Tomorrow - Phonetic
I do not have this confidence can be passed..
But I hope so because this subject is much easier than that shit bilingualism..
Sigh~ I really no that heart to revise..
I just rest first.. later just study.. until I sleep..
because I seem do not have that determination to study well..
I think I not really interested in these... =(


Just now, thinking wanna have another choice to continue my study..
Maybe transfer to another place..
Maybe..
Just.. I can't make my own decision..
because I do not have the ability to pay the tuition fee..
Much Much expensive..
Super super expensive..


Sigh..
after this shit phonetic exam then just think about it la..
I don't want to study the course that does not has any benefits to me..
Shit!!!

=(*

给最爱的你

因为网络的问题。。
现在已经是第3次写了。。

只想告诉你，
谢谢你的迁就。。
谢谢你的体贴。。
谢谢你的照顾。。
谢谢你煮饭给我吃。。
谢谢你对我的体谅。。
谢谢你忍耐我的任性。。
谢谢你。。老公。。

老婆是爱你的。。
希望你能够知道。。

我爱你！

我不是好人

I am not a good person!
我不是好人！
我真的不是一个好人..

刚才，我真的很不开心。。
突然间很不开心。。
很想很想哭。。
当时候的我，眼泪一直在眼眶盘旋着。。
一直很想流下来。。
为什么呢？
因为内心有太多的不满了。。
有太多的不开心。。
突然间没有mood看连续剧了。。
只是知道。。我很想哭。。


为什么我要酱子？
我真的不懂。。
为什么我要有这么多的不满？
我也不懂。。
忍一忍不可以吗?

我并没有对他发脾气。。
我只是在发我自己的脾气。。
生气自己。。
讨厌自己。。
想打自己。。
也很想哭。。

刚才已经哭过了。。
现在心情好转了一点。。
掩饰自己。。
把不快乐的自己。。
藏在角落里。。
这样就会没有人发现。。


也许是压力在作祟吧。。
明天就要考试了。。
一定死定。。
什么都不会。。
真的很想哭。。
哭了也没用。。
还是要靠自己面对一切的困难。。烦恼。。

加油咯！蔚欣。。
希望你（我）能够做到最好。。坚持到最后。。
任何事情都不能够逃避。。
一定要勇敢面对。。

加油！蔚欣。。
希望你能够当个好人。。

云顶之行

今天已经20号了。。



前天，18号，星期六，早上6点多。。
就出门去Kl Sentral搭巴士上云顶~
可是早班没有车票。。
只好等到中午12点。。
累垮我了。。因为整夜没睡。。其实不是。。有3天没有好好的睡过觉了。。
所以真的很累很累。。



来了Kl快要2个月了。。
终于可以上云顶去休息休息。。
顺便感受一下微冷的天气。。
真的开心。。
这次去云顶的目的就是~
观赏侧田的演唱会。。
我的处女演唱会。。献给了侧田。。哈哈。。

他的演唱会。。真的很棒。。
很喜欢他的歌。。
老早几年前已经爱上他的歌了。。
他的歌真的很动听。。也很悲伤。。
真的适合我的口味。。
他的快歌也不错。。
也爱上他的快歌。。
总而言之，他的出道。。是对的。。
他把所有动听的歌曲都献给了这个世界。。

真的很爱他的歌咧。。
我爱侧田~的歌曲啦!！

除了看演唱会。。
也去了赌场见识见识一下。。
21岁了。。
终于可以以成年人的身份，光明正大的进入赌场了。。哈哈。。

这！赌场真的是另外一个世界。。
人人都忙着上赌场去赢一点外快。。

里面真的是一个不夜城。。
人人都不用睡觉的。。
对着老虎机。。赌桌。。玩通宵。。
在云顶的赌场是赢不到钱的。。
可是人们还是试试看。。
希望有机会能够财从天降。。能到一笔不劳而获的金钱。。
只是。。这是不可能的咯。。

那里真的是一个醉生梦死的地方。。
以及是一个乌烟瘴气的地方。。
我真的在那里吸了太多的二手烟。。
快要呼吸不到。。


在这2天1夜的云顶之旅。。
开不开心。。还好啦。。
这是我和贝比的第2次的旅游。。



Muackz

压力很重。。放开我。。

第100篇部落格文章。。

现在的心情突然觉得很伤心。。
不懂为什么。。
只是觉得现在的我很烦躁。。
刚刚也发了小脾气。。
哎。。真的很讨厌我自己。。

今天是个难挨的一天。。
今天我不用Present任何东西。。
能逃过这一次。。我觉得很欣慰。。
只是明天要一起Present两个。。
真的觉得压力很大。。
真的很害怕在众人面前发表文章。。
不懂。。有无形的压力重重的包围着我。。
很想逃避这一切。。
可是我不能。。
现在的我真的真的很想哭。。
还有很多东西还没有写。。
我快要疯掉了。。 =(
SObbing Now..

请神能够保佑我！
让我顺顺利利。。
加油！=）