Down~

09.06.2008 Down DowN.. Downn..

Tonight.. Say truly.. I was not happy at all although I hang out with my friends..
Originally, it should be happy.. but..
i tried to be happy and mix into the happiness.. but it's really hard..

I am so sorry, baby..
When the time u needed me the most.. but i was not beside you..
I cannot give my warm and cares to you on that moment..
You lose your temper on that time..
But I donno the reasons.. and i still blamed you in my heart..
and still thinking there.. I didnt did wrong..
Sorry, baby..
Now, I know what had happened just now..
Baby, please forgive me..

and I didnt angry of you anymore although I was..
Dont feel Guilty..
It's Ok!!!!! I still can TahaN..

Hope that.. THe cold war won't be continued and appeared in our life..
Perhaps, after this quarrel.. our love will be more sweet and tough..
Could it be?..

10 Days

08.06.2008
Cloudy + Raining + Sunny Day..

10 Days..
We get together already have 10 days..
These 10 days.. we sticked together every days and every nights..
Never seperate..
Except sleeping hours..
I know this is ours honeymoon stages..
If we past our sweet sweet stages and step into a high level stage.. how could it be?
Could we still stick together everyday and nights?
Could we still very sweet like now????
Donno why this 2 days we were so sleepy and tired when until night time..
very funny..
cos we yawning in a same time.. always~

Few days ago.. It had occured some prob between us..
but we already compromised with each other..
Feel so scared on that moment.. so scare that the little matter will affect our relationship..
"Xiang ai rong yi, Xiang chu nan"..
I really dont hope to have any prob between us..
cos as you said..
# is fate let us meet up each other in few months back time..
is fate let us have chances to talk..
is fate let us have time to hang out together..
is fate let us to hold each other's hand.. #

Two ppl that do not have any connection will get together.. is really a miracle..
is really a fate..
I really hope that we can hold each other's hand for a whole long life.. never seperate..
Can it be a truth? or just a dream? haha..
I really donno..

Today.. we hang out for a whole day also..
Today.. we teased by his friends..
Today.. We have met up each other's family.. ( I donno his parents have what impression towards me? Good or bad? I donno.. a bit worry actually.. =( ..... )
Today.. we went for a movie.. "Kungfu Panda"..
Today.. we went for a drink before back home..

Hope that.. we can always so sweet like now..
we can always stick together and won't feel bored..

Hopefully..
Our love.. can be Eternal..... and Forever..

坏心情的两个人

今天，过了凌晨十二点。。应该说是昨天吧。。
我其实有点不开心。。担忧自己的小问题。。我该怎么办？
也许我不应该太过担忧。。也许只是一点小失调而已。。
可是我是一个蛮悲观的人。。有时候会想很多不好的事情。。
搞到自己无时无刻都在担忧。。

不知道为何今天的我特别地暴躁。。偶尔无意地顶撞妈咪。。
其实我不想的。。可是有些事情当我真的懂得时候。。就不用再重复第二次。。我会觉得很烦。。再加上我今天心情真的不是那么地好。。所以听入耳里。。都真的有点刺耳。。
对不起。。妈咪。。我不是有意的。。

今天Baby.. 心情也不是那么好。。
虽然他嘴里说没事。。可是心里一定是不好受的。。
我不知道要该如何帮他。。我只能在他身边默默地支持他。。听他诉苦。。
我明白做了一些违背自己良心的事情是真的不好受。。
可是又不能拒绝朋友的要求。。
所以我知道你真的是左右为难。。不知道要进还是退。。
谢谢你愿意告诉我这些事情。。
谢谢你愿意与我分享你的喜和悲。。
希望Baby你要想清楚自己要该如何面对一切。。
最重要的是。。你要过的了自己那关。。
我会永远支持你的。。

Miss you.. Baby..

Our Love

30 May 2008

I started with him in "E" cafe..
He tried to hold my hand many times although i already tried to avoid his caught..
But at last, I was failed and step into his "Love trap"..
Like this, we started..
At that night, we dated until very late just back home..
Our last movie is " What happens in Vegas" .. a romance and comedy movie..
Just only both of us watch that mid9 show at first..
Never have this experience before.. quite special..
After that just came in another pair of couples.. 4 ppl watched a movie together.. so funny!

We already get together in 4 days..
I never think that we will get together.. cos He seems so far from me..
I thought we will never have any connection..
Just have a little impression to him only..
Maybe fate let us get together..
At first, I just have a very nice chat with him..
We have topic.. our thoughts also quite similar.. so we always have a nice chat..
Actually i feel that we get together a bit faster..
Cos i donno how others look at us.. Mayb.. Haiz.. I really donno..
why should I care about how others look at us? silly..

I also donno how long our love can stand for.. few months? 1 year? few years? Forever?
I don dare to think about it.. cos I scare I am the one who heart broken at last..
I don have confidence.. a little scare..
Perhaps I have to believe in him..
I don wanna he gives me any promise.. I just hope that he really serious on me.. treat me well and don cheat me.. then I already felt satisfied..
I won't expect anything anymore..

Mayb I have to take it easy to our love..
Too many variables in this world.. we cant predict it..
Really hope that our love can be as tough as rock.. as deep as sea.. as sweet as candy.. as beautiful as rainbow..
Is that my dreams only?!
I donno..

I hope that you really can treat me well..
I will appreciate and love you so much.. BB..
Miss you...

Sorry Mr. Y

Do I have feeling to him?
When he tried to hold my hand just now.. I seem got some shocked feeling.. Just a few seconds, it has gone..
I asked him, don he think that we are too fast to fall in love?
He said, No! because got feeling..
For me, Yes! because I scare..
I scare to start a new love.. I scare it will end by a broken heart..
I dont have confident to handle a love very well..
I know, I never try.. I wont get any conclusion..
But.. I am lacking of a little courage.. a little impulse to start a new love..
Sigh~ what can I do?
Don force me to make a decision right now..
Still got many factors i need to consider or think well..
How?

Should I don't think too much and get together with him?
I know I already made him unhappy now.. cos he wanted my reply since jz nw..
but i really need to think for few more days..
So sorry to you.. I really dont hope to make u unhappy..
very sorry..
Plz forgive me... sigh~
I don want you to be sad..
Suddenly my heart feel pain when i saw ur personal msg..
why i feel pain?!
Do i have some feeling towards u? I care about you?
Mayb.. suddenly feel heart pain to ur msg..
Anyway.. give me some times.. i will reply you!!! k?

The Painful Breath

梁静茹-会呼吸的痛

在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛.....


>>> 为何这首歌能够唱出我当时的心情，当时的痛。。
为何你能够那么地神奇。。能够写出我当时的心痛。。
那是多么地贴切。。那么地真实！！
很久都没有见过他了。。只是他最近又找我加入他某个网站的朋友列表。。
我很久以前都已经删除他了。。为何他要找回我呢？
当我已下了决定的事情，是不会再回头了。。
对不起，只怪当初你伤害我太深了。。
不能怪我不和你做回朋友。。
而且现在已经没有这个必要了。。<<<<

A little trouble~

Why the Guys and Girls cannot be good friends?
Why the Guys and Girls have to step into another stage after a time?
Why they cant stay in the original position? in friend stages..
It's so hard to have a pure relationship between guys and girls.. Really!!!

Mayb I scare to accept a new love now.. I scare to get hurt once again..
Actually He is a good guy.. but i think it's too fast for me to start a new love with him..
I know he always give many hints to me..
But I pretend I donno everything.. I am escaping~
BUt it is really too fast.. I dont really so understand him.. I donno everything from him..
and actually I care his past..
He can so fast to change him aim..
He loved another girl before.. but the girl did not accept him.. and I know the girl also..
Perhaps this is the matter that I couldn't accept it..
because he can love a person so quickly and give up so fast after rejected by that girl..
Mayb I don't understand guy's thinking..
so i quite care of this small matter..
He let me feel that.. he is easy to fall in love..
but i am not the one can fall in love easily..
Sigh~.. anyway love is really trouble..
I have a nice chat with him always.. He is a good friend that can chat.. can get fun also..
But I don really hope to have a higher stage with him in this temprorary..
Be friend is the best choices for me currently..
I don't hope to destroy the good relationship with him now..
I enjoy to sms with him.. chat with him..
So i don't hope to have any changes in this time..

I really hope that.. he can give both of us a time..
to truly understand and realize each other well..
to see whether we are really suitable to be couple or friends....

Take A time~....

A little Sad at Tonight~

如果一个男生在你面前流泪？
你会有什么感觉？你会有什么反应？
其实他们流泪，并不代表什么。。
也许只是一种情绪上的发泄而已。。
当初我还不明白，以为他还爱着我。。
其实都不是。。
现在我已懂了。。。
我永远都不会忘记曾经的伤害和心痛。。
那种心痛真的是心如刀割。。如此的真实。。

Already past a few years.. I seldom rmb back this kind of sadness..
Just suddenly a friend mentioned to me.. Once again.. I dropped into the sadness...
A sad memory..
But it's ok..
The time to sad already gone.. No more sad now.. just a little feeling only..

Wanted!

I have a Long time didnt type something here..
Jz now went to sing k with friends..
Sing k = screaming loudly..
Dont know have anyone will agree with my silly thought..? I think there is nobody..
A happy singing jz now..
Although i do not have any singing techniques.. any sweet voice..
At least, I can release my feel.. my everything inside my heart..
The screaming is converted into words and melodies..... it's comfortable in my heart..

Sigh~ actually I'm losing my direction now.. I dont know where to go..
I don't know I have the courage to give myself a chance to have a new life..
New life.. I'm so wanted to have a new life long long time ago..
But i'm lacking of some courage.. a little courage to change myself..
so troublesome..
IF there are someone helps me to decide something.. Guide me to a right pathway..
I think It's really wonderful..
But.. Our fate is in our hands..
No one can really help us..

What should i do right now?
When should be the aimless life ended? -.-

What Should I do?

昨天昨夜，其实我觉得非常伤心。。
只是，我并没有表露出来。。
家里的不愉快，学业的烦恼，朋友。。
其实我很想哭。。可是却压抑自己不准哭。。因为我要变得坚强。。坚强的人是不能流一滴泪的。。
成绩不如人，别人也不会找你一起申请大学。。
我什么都不懂。。成为了局外人。。
这最让我伤心。。难道我不能知道任何的程序？只因我的成绩不如人？

三个月的漫长假期。。让我越来越少接触外界。。好像也跟社会脱了节似的。。
朋友也没有几个是可以常出来聚一聚。。
熟悉的朋友。。少之又少。。十个手指头都能数得清。。
原来，我是如此的寂寞。。
也许我是时候应该要改变自己了。。改变自己的性格，改变自己的态度。。
不然。。朋友真的会越来越少。。
她，也不太理我了。。也许问题是出自我自己吧。。
我不懂。。
我不懂。。
我不要再想了。。
I am so Sad of it...
What should I do?
Nobody can help me, It depends on myself only...