1 Month

不知不觉，

我们在一起已经有1个月了。。

在这短短的一个月里，

其实我们都经历过很多风雨。。

我们天天都腻在一起。。感觉非常甜蜜。。

偶尔，我们也起了争执。。搞到彼此都不开心。。

谁叫我们的性格都是那么地倔强。。那么地暴躁。。

只是，当我们都妥协好了以后。。

一切都变得很好了。。

不知道为什么，我和你在一起之后。。

我变得很眼浅。。很容易流泪。。

我也不懂。。

也许眼泪线不听话吧。。

很多时候，我都会很容易眼眶湿湿。。

被你发现之后。。你都会很狂。。不知如何是好。。

偶尔还会责备我。。

干嘛责备我咧。。我也不想的嘛。。

就如刚才。。

你说，不论以后老了之后你会变得多皱皮。。你的XXXXXXXX。。。

我都会永远爱着你。。

虽然你是半开玩笑的对我说。。

可是不知为何。。我的眼眶突然有点湿。。

也许是当时觉得感动。。

很废吧。。

虽然我不知道以后会发生什么事情，

我们的以后会是如何。。

我们的未来还很遥远。。

所以，我很希望我们都能够珍惜眼前的对方。。

珍惜现在所拥有的一切。。

爱你。。

Apart with My Fellow Friends

Date : 27 June 2008 (Fri)
Venue : Sandakan Airport





Date : 25 June 2008 (Wed)
Venue : S Cafe






Date : 25 June 2008 (Wed)
Venue : Pizza Hut



MY FELLOW FRIENDS...


The time to apart already arrived..
My Friends.. already left on yesterday and today..
I so envy of them..
They can go to study..
Can go to Local U to study..
They have their orientation right now already ..
Just left me, alone at this boring place..
I wanna go to study too..
I already felt too impatient to wait and wanna go to study right now..
I am so boring! I am so aimless.. at this super duper boring place..
The waiting process is so suffer..
What can I do now?
I don wanna waste my time here..
It's unworthy..
My life should not be like this..
I wanna go to STUDY!!!
I WANT!!!
I am so Upset...

Seperate with my friends already..
Donno when can we stay together again?
Donno when can we meet again?
Donno when can we come out crazy again?
Donno when can we smile, joke, and laugh together again?
During CNY or.. ?
I also donno..


I will miss my friends so much..
Hope that they wont forget me..
After have new friends, plz don't forget your old friends..
Example, Me~
Miss you Friends..

Baby and Me~

A Nice Pose~ Haha!


Muackz... I love my lou gong..

四个人

人生就是为了寻找爱的过程，
每个人的人生都要找到四个人。。

#这篇文章，不懂看了多少次。。
可是这真的很有意思。。
内容所说的，都很正确。。
很佩服写这文章的人。。
他可以写出所有人的心中话。。#


第一个是自己,
第二个是你最爱的人，
第三个是最爱你的人，
第四个是共度一生的人.

首先会遇到你最爱的人，
然後体会到爱的感觉；
因为了解被爱的感觉，
所以才能发现最爱你的人；
当你经历过爱人与被爱，
学会了爱，
才会知道什么是你需要的，
也才会找到最适合你，
能够相处一辈子的人。
但很悲哀的，
在现实生活中，
这三个人通常不是同一个人；

你最爱的，
往往没有选择你；
最爱你的，
往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，
偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，
只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。

你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？
没有人是故意要变心的，
他爱你的时候是真的爱你，
可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，
他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；

同样的，
他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你 。
当一个人不爱你要离开你，
你要问自己还爱不爱他，
如果你也不爱他了，
千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开；

如果你还爱他，
你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐，
希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，
绝不会阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，
就表示你已经不爱他了，
而如果你不爱他，
你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？

爱不是占有，
你喜欢月亮，
不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里，
但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。
换句话说，
你爱一个人，
也可以用另一种方式拥有，
让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆，
如果你真爱一个人，
就要爱他原来的样子─爱他的好，
也爱他的坏：爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点，
绝不能因为爱他，
就希望他变成自己所希望的样子，
万一变不成就不爱他了。

真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，
你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，
你都希望这个人陪著你；
真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，
也就是没有丝毫要求。
毕竟，感情必须付出，
而不是只想获得；

分开是一种必然的考验，
如果你们感情不够稳固，
只好认输，
真爱是不会变成怨恨的。



#爱情是什么东西呢？
要经历过才会明白。。
要体会过才会了解。。
要快乐过才会知道。。
要心痛过才会知道痛的感觉。。#

最近

最近。。
我很常写部落。。
有很长的一段时间，我都没有写过了。。
最近。。爱上写部落了。。
也许，最近。。
太多东西想了吧。。
很想很想。。写出来。。
很想很想。。抒发出来。。

最近。。
不知为何很累。。
不知道是生理上的累。。
还是心理上的累。。

这几天。。
不知道为何会起得特别早。。
即使很迟才睡。。
可是却会比平时早起一点。。
之后，就再也睡不回去了。。
做么咧？
我真的不懂。。

我真的很累。。
很很很烦。。。
我该怎么办？
是我有问题吗？
还是。。
问题真的出现在我身上。。
我要如何解决？。。。。
我真的很累。。
什么也不想再去想了。。
很烦！！！！
谁能够指点我？
让我看清楚这个世界。。。

我的眼睛现在很累。。。
真的很想去睡觉。。
睡觉能够忘掉一切烦恼。。
全都抛到九霄之外。。

很累。。。
很累。。。
很累！

Too Bad..

I feel complicated now..
Hmm.. I am not unhappy but just feel that I got something to think..
Many things come into my mind..

I ask myself,
Am I facing some problem now?
Feeling so weird now..
Sigh~

Sometime I have to blame myself..
Why I so "Slow Hot"?
Why I can't be more aggressive?
Why I can't be more brave?
To accept and try some new things...
I also dont know why I am such a person like that..
Mayb I am a "been protected" flower..
Live in a greenhouse environment since young..
So I am not dare to try..
not dare to accept something new..
I also don't know what I wanted..

Perhaps, my such personality has made somebody unhappy or dislike..
What he wanted to get from me..
I can't give him.. for this temporary..
Not don let him take.. but not right now..
I am sorry if I made you unhappy..
Mayb You are tired or somehow.. u really unhappy of me..
I can't differentiate of it..
Bcos I myself also so blur of it..

Love one person is not an easy thing..
Love one person needs some courage..
"Xiang chu" with that person you loved.. is also not an easy thing also..
When I have chosen you..
You are mine.. You are belong to me..

Quarrel, is unavoidable..
Unahappy of some matters, is also unavoidable..
In Love, many things are happened in a unavoidable status...
We can't escape, but we have to face it.. Solve it..

My mind my heart still....
(don't know how to describe..)
Donno tonight i will get insomnia or not...

Go to sleep is better..
Bored to think!!!!

The 3rd Day that without him

The 3rd day that without him..
(Yesterday.. )

3 days,
I didnt see him..
Dont know why we have many topics when chatting by phone..
Hmm.. Mayb we are not together in a same place..
So we have different things can share..
Hmm.. I like the feeling..
It's so nice when he told me what had happened with him.. =)

Today, 23 June
This crazy baby didnt sleep whole night..
I still thought him will sleep...
Who knows..
Sigh~ Gik sei ngor.. =(

He is coming back now..
Hmm.. I am so expect now.. Hehe..
Very expect to see him tonight..
So miss you baby...

Muackzzz...

The 2nd Day that without him

This is Chocolate Gxxxx Cheese Cake..

Forgot the full name of it.

A delicious cake..

Cos it has a sweet-smelling of chocolate when it melted in my mouth..

I LOVE chocolate so muchhhh...

I Ate this piece of cake at a nice and memorable cafe.. =)

I am using my hp to write blog.. This is the first time..

A new try..

Hmm.. Today is the 2nd day..

He is not wit me..

Suddenly i can realize the feeling of distance love..

Although we are not having distance love.. Just temporary seperate...

But i felt unsecure suddenly.. Just now..

Mayb i cant see him.. He is not here.

Dono what's happened around him..

although he got told me where he go..

Mayb i think too much only..

My brain is always in a blank status..

SOT liao..

Hope that baby wont angry of my sudden thoughts..

It's nothing at all..

Is just I think too much only.. =(

Mayb this is the first time we seperate..

So I'm not used of it. It's Nothing..

So miss my baby..

Hope you can faster come back.

Miss you so much.

And i wanna say sorry to him of this evening event.

I was in a bad mood.

Miss you alotz..

Muackz...

A Complicated Night

Besides missing my Baby..

I was thinking many things..
Say truly, I really hope to go to study as soon as possible..
I become impatient in waiting 2 more months..
2 more months,
62 days,
How will I spend my time in the coming days?
I really don't hope to waste my time anymore..
I wanna do something.. I wanna do something..
My life is aimless currently..
Totally aimless.. No doubt!
My 21 years old.. should not be wasted just like that..
It's too pity if I really do so..
NO NO NO!
My life cannot be like this..
Totally Cannot..
Totally cannot be accepted..
Although baby asked me don't think too much..
But but but..
I can't control myself to not to think about this problem..
A bit cranky at tonight..
Get angry easily..

My Friends, they are gonna to study soon..
These few days, they are so busy.. to prepare to go to study..
Only me, is so free..
No need to busy and trouble for many things..
It feels so weird.. =(
What to do? We do not have same aim..
Next Friday and Saturday, they will be left..
Seeing them gonna to leave..
my heart feel a little sad..
Bcos I cannot be together with them to go to a same destination..
Some of them go to west malaysia
and some of them go to kk to further their studies..
Just left me staying at here...
Sigh! we will seperate soon..
Say truly, I really bu she de them..
cos we already been classmate for so many years.. about 8 years..
This time, we really have to seperate..
Dont know when we will meet again?
I also donno..
Just, what can I do is..
Have a farewell to them..
send them at airport..

We have our own road to walk..
Hope that we still can back to the origin after we go after our dreams..
Good Lucks..
Buddies...

The 1st Day that without him

Yesterday,
It is the FIRST day, He was not with me..
This is the first time, we seperate for few days..
After 22 days, we apart for few days..
I miss him so much!
The night that without him, I was alone..
and felt a little moody....
I already used his presence in my life..
His absence for the following nights.. I will be lonely..
Baby, so miss you!
Hope to see you and touch you...

Mayb this is the test between both of us..
to test that whether we can adapt to the life that without each other..
I Think I can't adapt to it..
cos you already appeared in my life..
you cannot disappear from my life.. Cannot~~~

I know you havent sleep yet..
Hope you can take care youself always..
Sleep more.. to recruit your energy..
Drink more water.. to keep your health..

Love you!
Muackz...


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